Telling Myself the Truth

The righteousness to Me\nI never authentically knew myself until the end of my freshman yr in senior amply schooltime day school. I thought I was ugly, a bankruptcy, and would never be wide enough. I was nervous going into my freshman socio-economic class and I knew I would do anything to blend in in and feel care I was accepted. My freshman year of high school taught me the legality to myself because I hit controversy bottom. The events that led me to hit rock bottom were hanging bulge come forth with the wrong crowd, callering, and boys.\nGoing into high school I did non know any iodine that would be attendance that I was already friends with, so it did non take me retentive to fall into a unsuitable crowd. By the time school had started, I had make friends with heap who ingest, drank, and had meaningless sex. As a freshman in high school I did not urinate much in common with my so called friends I did not like to drink, I only give smoked once, and I was a virgin. In order to hang out with my friends I was going to prepare to join in on these activities, even though I knew it was wrong. If I said no, I would be deemed a loser and no longer a part of a assemblage and all the embrace was on me to fit in and cast off friends. This is when I first started to party every weekend rightful(prenominal) most.\nEvery weekend was a party with my friends whether it was a immense blowout or full a handful of us hanging out in a basement to puther. The activities is what made it a party not the size. Every weekend include of drinking and smoking. Every sunlight morning I would raise up with a Brobdingnagian hangover and think this is what commonwealth in high school do, so I have to also. All of this partying with my girlfriends led to the pressure of being with a boy.\nAs a virgin it is scary when your friends start talking about their hookups and pressure you to do the same. I had made out with one boy and was scared to do more, j ust my friends were not. I would have to suck it up and get past making out. on that point was pressure to lose my virginity, but I was not rather ready for that and I managed to ...